I'm NOT ALRIGHT!!!

1 Kings 17-19 recounts the story of Elijah and the many miracles God performed through him. Yet, even after all God brought Elijah through we see in 1 Kings 19:3-4 that Elijah runs away when his life is threatened by Queen Jezebel. He becomes dispondent...he says, '“I have had enough, Lord,”...“Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.”' This blows me away...after all these miracles why would Elijah RUN?

I look back at my life and remember some of the miracles God has done through me and for me. But my first 2 1/2 years back in Colorado I went into a complete depression. I felt the enemy attacking constantly; I became drained, weak, questioning my calling and faith. I just wanted to sleep the day away. I asked God to take my life.

Just like Elijah I had to admit that I was not alright!!!! But God tapped me on the shoulder and reminded me that He was still with me, even though I was walking through the wilderness. My bread and jar of water in the wilderness came in the healing of my daughter and in seeing a lump go away on a girl afraid that it was cancerous. I was seeing lives changed for the glory of God right in front of my eyes. Once followers of the evil one they were now becoming disciples of the Most High!!!!

Think about the miracles God has done through you and for you....

Think about the times when you were in the wilderness, when God gave you the hot bread and water....

Think about those days when life was not worth living, your faith didn't seem real, God seemed distant and you just wanted to sleep the day away.

He is still with you!!

It is okay to say you are not alright, you are broken inside. But remember all that you go through leads back to Him!!!!

In Matthew 6 Jesus reminds us to look at the lilies of the field...look at our mountains, stars, the sunrise or sunset...the birds of the air, and yet you are far more valuable to God than these things.

Stop looking for God in the big things of life. Look instead at the small things; a child's smile, a simple hug or a kiss from a loved one. But more importantly - your Father's whisper that you are His!!!

Be blessed,

Steve